Every Woman Has A Princess’s Spirit Inside
Doesn’t matter if she believes in a fairy tale or not
Third Eye Gypsy.Love & Relationship Journey
Doesn’t matter if she believes in a fairy tale or not
When I was young, I dreamed of being a princess whom one day would grow up to be a beautiful bride for prince charming.
I was just young and didn’t know much about love.
When I grew up I was fallen in love with a man who ended up cheating on me and leaving me with another woman.
That event caused deep pain and a fear of being abandoned which became a big part of my life that I was not aware of.
As much as I found it hard to trust a man again, I still longed for true love, a serious relationship that led to marriage.
I was so blind to believe that being married would guarantee the road of not being left alone ever again, and all the fear would disappear.
After many wild world romances began and ended several times, I was not yet married.
The time counted. I would not be young forever.
In that darkness of the soul, and many life lessons I have been through.
I finally realized the cause of my suffering. I found that little girl inside of me, fear of being abandoned.
The desire behind wanting so badly to get married was to be guaranteed that I would never be left alone again.
But no matter what my marital status is, the fear within me would still be there, and no one could heal it unless I work on healing my wound.
I gave up the idea of being married and enjoying my forty. I chose to love myself and relearn and recreate the idea of what marriage means.
Marriage is the holy act of inviting God into the journey of two. It was not two becoming one, but the two persons on two different journeys walking alongside hands in hand with eyes aimed at God, the pure love.
I don’t want the holy marriage to be a tool for my fear. This fear is what God and I will do together, and with the power of love, it is enough to do so.
Slowly, day by day, the wound heals. The fear is not gone anywhere. It is still here with me. The difference is I recognize it and won’t let it control me.
I chose to give love to the fear and understand why it happened and chose again to trust.
Love is a choice we choose again and again.
When I least expected, My lover proposed. We got married.
My dream of being a princess and married prince charming was fulfilled. It was not the way I thought it would be.
Princess is not just a beautiful figure born into a life filled with rainbow and roses.
Princess is the one who went through the darkness without losing faith, who saw the evils and gave love to them, the one who believed in goodness during mystery, and who chose love over fear again and again.
I want to remind you that every woman has a princess’s spirit inside. She may have to go through difficulties in life, be challenged by the darkness, be fearful and forget who she is.
But it won’t change who she really is. She is made of pure love, and she will find a way to love again.
My name is Lita Jane, spreading Love, sharing Relationship Journeys, and sneak peeks into the Sexuality and Spiritual realm.
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