And that is ok
During a walk to Abelletes lake, Andorra, I felt a lot of mental attacking doubling if I would make it there. Hiking is not my cup of tea. I rather choose to swim if there is that choice.
So I reflected on the experience of walking with how discouraged I felt from pursuing my dream and made it a Youtube video.
To be honest, I feel discouraged a lot. I started to pursue a new passion for expressing myself through words and visual art like pictures and videos.
Everything is new for me and I start from scratch learning new skill sets. It is like learning to walk again when you are already a grown-up person.
I feel envy especially when I see other people already run or even fly in what they are doing.
I can’t help to compare myself to others. Sometimes, I wondered if I will ever make it there but surely I will never go back to do the same old thing that I have a full skill set for.
I was an engineer after my father stepped. It was my dream job at that time but a dream is dynamic and it changed with time.
After 10 years of working in a conventional job, I need something that I feel excited to wake up for even if I have to deal with an unknown future. I think it is worth it. That feeling of aliveness is worth taking a risk again and again.
I am glad at least there is this love from my husband that always lift and hold me. He believes in me more than what I see in myself.
Sometimes we only need that one person who is by our side reminded us how worthy we are.
If you think no one believes in you. I am here to remind you that you can do anything and everything. Feeling discouraged from time to time won’t determine what your future will be. And when we arrived there, we will have another story to tell.
In the end, I believe what we are after is not exactly how much money we will earn, admiration or appreciation from others but another version of who we are, the evolution and potential of ourselves.
I can’t wait to see how this journey will turn out and transform but at this moment I accept that feeling discourages from time to time is part of it.
We are a human having human experiences and this is life.
My name is Lita Jane, writer of Wild Love Holy Island, founder of Dream Maker publication, sharing Love, building Relationships, and enjoying Sexuality, exploring the Spiritual realm.
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