I Got Married When I Least Expected It
It is not a happy ending but the beginning of a new challenging chapter
Love & Relationship Journey
It is not a happy ending but the beginning of a new challenging chapter
When I was young I dream of being a beautiful bride as I have seen in a movie. They have a beautiful man by their side and look happy in beautiful grown.
And as growing up in Asian culture where women are valued by which man she is with that desire nearly tortured me.
When I entered my 30, I had to come up with an excuse for why didn’t I marry yet.
I was desperate and hopeless to find my prince charming who would rescue me from my own self-doubt.
Despite the single anxiety, I couldn’t settle down for less.
I was looking for the one everywhere outside myself. Someone who will fill every void inside my heart, and heal the wound that was long ignored.
I thought when I found him my life would be completed.
Little did I know the journey of finding the one was within me, loving and, accepting myself was the path to love.
I had severely heartbroken and from there I surrendered to whatever that was.
Long story short with a lot of twists and turns I wrote in Wild Love Holy Island, The series. My heart healed.
Wild Love Holy Island, The Series.
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When my age started with the number 4, I finally found peace.
The connection to divine love completed me from within.
Love is abundantly all around me.
The desire to be married subsided as I realized the true desire under the need for a beautiful wedding was to be healed from the abandonment wound and I was healed.
I don’t need anymore the beautiful wedding nor a man who promises to never leave me because love will never leave me and I vowed to always cherish myself.
When I no longer expected it, I got married to the love of my life, receiving abundantly divine love through him. My old-forgotten dream is fulfilled.
I am so grateful. Not because I found that man but because I found a lost one inside of me and helped her heal.
Every time I looked into his eyes what I saw was my own reflection gracing back with love and kindness.
The journey to love is an amazing spiritual journey. It hurt and it heals I am thankful for every experience that shaped me today.
Love is there where we are abundantly ready to be received. We deserved it. We are love.
Even though many Hollywood movies made the wedding a milestone and the ending of a love story.
For me, it is just another new beginning of two persons walking along through individual challenges supporting one another with love and kindness.
We got married in May 2022. I was 41 years old. This is the video of our Thai-Esarn Wedding. Enjoy
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