Meeting the Lord in the Sacred Plant Medicine
Discovering the potential love you and I could become
Discovering the potential love you and I could become
Closing my eyes and sitting in meditation was never easy. I struggled with thoughts and my body’s urge to move. I counted every minute and contemplated the meal I would have later.
I wonder how could one find joy in the simple act of breathing and if I ever found mine. One day, I received my first plant medicine and discovered the potential I could become.
I was excited and nervous at the same time. Arriving late at the ceremony did no good, other than increasing my nervousness. I changed to a white cloth and sat in the circle around the altar among other practitioners. We consecrated the act to the divine and devoted our practice to glorifying the consciousness.
After the consecration, my beloved teacher went on to start the ritual. He lit the candles and invited a spirit from the north, west, east, and south into the space followed by the Goddesses and the supreme Lord of Consciousness. The whole place was enchanted with divine energies. A wave of excitement and wonder came to my body.
I received the first medicine and we went on meditating. The medicine started to work on my body, giving me a mixed feeling of shaking and calmness. My body dissolved into space, nothingness as I went into deep meditation.
I did not know one hour went by until I was served another medicine. As medicine touched my lips, I imagined taking the blood of Christ in me.
“Take me Lord.” I prayed.
Within the blink of my closed eyes, a powerful force penetrated my whole being. My body was tumbled with strong emotions.
I was immersed in the intense energy, beautiful light, colors, and patterns that made the Avatar movie boring. Within my closed eyes, I felt a pure love, beyond any words could describe.
Without seeing, I knew the Lord was with me. I was in Him and He was in me. My tears dripped like a leaking pipe.
In His presence, all my concerns were bought up in the form of thoughts. The answers were made known by realizations.
One of which was the issue in my family. The inharmonious relationship that caused me anxiety and depression to the point that I wished to cut the soul tie between us and ended this suffering.
If I were to ask the Lord, there would be nothing He could not do or undo. But in His presence, there was no pain or sorrow, only a tremendous amount of love in my heart.
I love my family like how the Lord does. I chose them from the beginning. I realised deep in my soul the wish to cut the soul cord was never a true desire. What came to be true was only love.
I committed to healing us and through this spiritual soul bond, I could. In every moment I am awake, cultivating my awareness, and remembering who I am, healing shall happen in us.
Not only to my family but to every being because we are one and all connected. The tear of gratitude broke down like a broken damn.
Every sorrow I ever had, the Lord shone the light and love on, taught me His way of love. Where there is love, there is no suffering.
The joy of being with Him then transforming into an attachment, knowing that when the effect of the medicine wore off I would not be able to feel the Lord, any longer.
So afraid, I asked.
Now that I see you how could I live without.
Oh my Lord, may You hear the whisper of my soul.
Help me live eternity within You.
There was no answer made known to me and I drifted into the spiral of energy full of color and beauty. The reality within my closed eyes put all the masterpieces of the world to shame.
I was proud to receive such a privilege, drunk in my ego, blind to believe I was made more significant than others.
With my thought, I prepped the word I would share with the world, the stage I love to play.
“Drop the performer and come to me.” The voice was calling me back.
I denied the performer and came back to the Lord. My soul filled with joy that was incomparable to any joy the world could offer.
But not for long before those vivid colors and beautiful visions of my future came, I dripped into those beauties, playing the roles.
“Drop the play and come to me.” The voice insisted.
I dropped who I thought I was and came back to the Lord, embraced by the subtle joy that made me no longer want to be anywhere.
But it was not for long before another beautiful vision tried to steal my attention. But this time, I would not let it in. I shouted in silence.
I AM NOT A PERFORMER.
Then the performer asked.
If you are not a performer, Who are you?
The pure white light was exposed from within, as bright as a million suns combined yet gentle shooting and no harm, the powerful force yet subtle.
In that brief moment, I recognized myself as one of the Lord. There was no separation, no differentiation. I am the Lord myself.
Tremendous joy was thrown all over me. I have found a home and know who I am.
But it was not for long before the performer crept in and acted as a Lord proud of itself of whom it had become. I burst out laughing.
The performer and the Lord of consciousness are like each side of one coin. When one shows one hide. When one denies the performer one realizes one is consciousness.
A dance between the performer and the Lord of consciousness continued, I drifted into thought, vision, and act, but every time the Lord would call.
Drop the thought, and come to me.
Drop the vision, and come to me.
Drop the act and come to me.
When the mind is still, you will see me, like stilled water, allow what beneath to be seen. And you will recognize, you and I were one.
It has been nearly 3 weeks since the ceremony ended. I was no longer living in that enchanted stage but my relationship with meditation has shifted in a way I could not remember who I was before.
Meditation became part of my daily life without a fixed plan and determination to achieve anything. My body is inclined to go into meditation whenever it feels like it. Sometimes it could be in the middle of the dance floor, after my body had moved enough I sat and close my eyes and there I found joy and peace in the simple act of breathing and sometimes I had a little chat with the Lord. He is there, always
Disclaimer: The experience one may get from plant medicine is varied from one to another depending on many factors. There is no guarantee of a positive outcome. Some people experience a negative impact that came with it. I do not encourage or condone anyone to use or not use any kind of substance. Some of these substances may be illegal in different areas. Please take this into consideration, do your own research, and consult the expert before consuming any plant medicine.
I like to pray gratitude to my husband who took care of my duty while I was away for my spiritual journey. He was not with me in the ceremony but his spirit was there sending tremendous love and support. He is the reason I am today and I can not be thankful enough.
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