Oops, I Did It Unfiltered: Embracing Imperfections & Finding My Voice
Oops, I Did It Unfiltered: Embracing Imperfections & Finding My Voice
Laugh Along as I Trip Over Perfectionism on My Journey to Self-Discovery
Hey folks! I have a big plan, a really big one, too big that it could not find its way out of my head. I am struck with a perfectionism phobia. That sucks, yeah I know!
I’m sure you know what I mean! So to break free from this, I need to act without thinking. I am not suggesting this to anyone, really!
This idea came to me after I watched a YouTube video of a young girl, sharing how lonely she was with a big cry, no prob, no great lighting, no amazing microphone, and no makeup. Crazy, the view count was over 2 million. That video has ignited something in me and encouraged me to be me.
The flash thought came to my mind.
Let’s just film something, speak whatever, and post it as a way to unlock myself from the perfectionist loop.
So I followed the guide.
I am on my second day now and I saw a big shift in me. (Fingers crossed that I could keep doing it).
The first day I was very nervous. I did my makeup and tried to set the background and so on!
Eventually, I felt overwhelmed with fear that it would not be good enough and ended up not feeling like speaking, but I still followed through till the end. If you'd like to watch the video, it's here!
The second day! I filmed it right on my bed after waking up (of course with a little help from the filter to not feel so embarrassed). I had a microphone on but didn’t realize that I didn’t set everything up properly and did not even turn it on, so it was recorded purely with the phone mic, but it doesn’t matter. I found joy in doing it, like dumping my head out!
I think the fun comes from the fact that I didn’t expect anything from it! I even feel comfortable if no one would watch it. I experienced the freedom of just showing up and fu#king doing it for myself only.
I am going to keep doing it and see where this will lead me! So if you want to witness my journey, connect with me on Instagram and YouTube! I post my videos there.
Thank you for reading, listening, and seeing me.
I love you.
Lalita Janette