There You Are I've Been Looking For You My Whole Life

Week 4 • August 7, 2026

Great to see you again, my dear readers.

I’m starting to love this routine and have begun to internalize what I want to share with you each week.

Unfortunately, the pain in my shoulder is still very present and continues to bother me. It has brought unconscious thoughts and old patterns to the surface.

I spent years fearing them, but I realized soon after that many of those thoughts weren’t really mine. They were stories my parents told me to protect me or make me behave.

“The gecko will eat your liver if you cry,” for example.

However, that very voice has continued to play a role in my life.

In an attempt to reprogram my inner dialogue, I wrote myself a letter.

Instead of listening to fear, I began collecting evidence from the past several months.

Every promise I kept.

Every fear I faced.

Every small step forward.

Every moment I didn’t give up.

Evidence that my fearful mind often forgets.

Holy crap.

I didn’t know I’d done that much.

And now, granted, I’m only able to see it because this evidence is lying right in front of me.

So here we go.

I wanted to share it with you, my precious readers, and I hope it reminds you how great you are…

Because you really are.

Love,

Lalita Janette