When God Says, “Trust Me, I Have It All Planned Out for You, Including That Money You Need”
I let go and let God run my life
Wild Love Holy Island, The Series
I let go and let God run my life
After a visit to a mysterious Wild Love Holy Island, I was not the same. I have God with me and I knew for sure that city life was no longer what I wanted and what God wanted for me.
I had to move to the island and live the dream I dreamed of for a long time.
Thank my ex, he left me so it was not a difficult choice to leave where our memories were.
Thank him, I lost motivation in working so it was not hard either to leave the unfulfilled job and became a hippy.
Well, If I was honest with what I felt, I would say, I felt unsure, insecure, and fearful of the unknown future.
I could not stop thinking about how would I do with my financial situation.
Without a stream of income, my mind played a big role in my fear. It was an illusion danger as I have quite a bit of savings.
As if God wanted to give me another sign that leaving my toxic life was God’s desire, He blessed me with a Financial I needed and this is the story of how it happened.
Letting Go
White packing, I came upon an audio book named “Spark Joy: The Life-Changing Magic of Tidying Up” by Marie Kondo which prepped me for a surprise receiving.
Marie’s technique was unlike any conventional how-to organizing method, having nothing to do with organizing, prioritizing, or maximizing efficiency.
It is all about how the object makes you feel. If it sparks joy, then keep it, if it is not, let it go with gratitude no matter how expensive or valuable things are.
I started to sort out all the items. I held each object in my hands and felt them, I kept what sparked me joy and let go with gratitude for anything that didn’t bring joy to my life.
I clearly remembered when I came upon a piece of a loan agreement that someone promise to return but he never did.
I looked at the contract and felt the pain of an unfulfilled promise. The anger which has been held for several years in that paper raised.
I saw his ugly face in my vision so vividly. The stinking smell of lier made me want to vomit. I ached to smash him with his cheap arrogant words.
“Let it go, give it to me.”
The calm inner voice of the Divine spoke through my heart.
As difficult as it might seem, I leaned into the divine and let go.
I prayed to God to help me release the attachment and forgive. The words came through my mouth, I called this guy’s name and said:
“This money you owe me,
I give it to you.
From this moment onward,
there is no you who own me.
From this moment onward,
I am a willing giver, and you are the grateful receiver.
From this moment onward,
I let go of attachment, hatred, and anger.
I let you free.”
I tore the loan agreement down into small pieces. An inner peace filled my heart. I was no longer a victim of circumstance. I freed him, and I freed myself.
I continued the same process to many other items I kept holding on to, which included the gifts from my ex-partner.
I forgave him and thanked him. I gave all to God, the anger, hatred, and disappointment, and I asked for the blessing for all of them. I became so joyful by the end of the process.
Love Me
As my home was lighter and I had more room to roam around, I started to hear my internal dialogues louder. They were full of blame.
What are we going to do now?
How can we deal with money?
What will other people think of us?
What if you have never done that in the first place? And so on.
What a brutal companion I was to myself! No one would like to hear those words, especially when I have nothing but myself. Still, I unconsciously say mean things to myself over and over again.
As I became conscious about my word, I spoke to myself with respect and kindness like a good old friend.
“You have been so faithful and dedicated all your life for us, your family, and other people.
Yes, we don’t know what the future will hold for us.
Yes, I understand why you are worried, but at this moment,
please let me take care of you and let God take care of us.
I love you.”
I stopped pressuring myself to have an answer for everything. I took care of my inner child, took her on a date night in a fancy restaurant, and pampered her with all the love God have been given.
Love Others
As I felt love and compassion for myself, my heart opened to love others. As I faced my fear, I felt compassion for other people’s lives. I blessed every life that came across my sight, the homeless, the police, the taxi drivers, and so on, even the poor sick dogs, flowers, and trees without expectation.
I asked God to love them even though I knew God loved everyone unconditionally and equally. A tremendous love flew through me, I cried out of joy so many times in a day.
Time to receive
I didn’t do all of that expecting this to happen but I am grateful it did. I received money equivalent to my yearly income.
How the money came to me was another ridiculous story that proved to me the existence of the unknown realm again and again.
An Oil & Gas stock I invested in which had never given any return more or less than a three percent dividend yearly, suddenly went up two hundred percent. Read carefully, 200 percent, double what I invested in.
It got me by surprise that this stock could rise after the oil crisis when the oil price hit rock bottom (Oil Crisis 2014–2016). Many of my ex-colleagues got laid off during that period. Only a miracle could explain the sudden drastic increase in that particular stock, which was extremely contrasted with the economic situation.
I could also miss opportunities to sell and make a profit if there were no one telling me to have a look.
As most of my stocks were extremely low-risk, I was not looking at my investment account often.
Besides, I already forgot the password to log in to my account but nothing could stop what God had in His plan.
I heard a miracle message from my friend’s son. He was probably around five years old and too young to know what the stock market was. He also didn’t tell me about my stock either. He was just speaking alone, as any young kid did.
“The stock is going down.” I heard.
I was not sure what he said. But when I heard it, I felt warm, like comfortable guidance reminding me to take some action.
Two days after I heard the message from a little boy, I finally recovered my password and successfully logged in to my investment account.
That oil and gas stock price dropped slightly from the previous two days ago, which was the highest price in the last two decades.
I sold almost all of the stock, which was by far my biggest holding. I earned as much as my annual income while I did not work. It was unbelievable, and I felt humble gratitude.
Obviously, that money did not make me become the richest woman in the world, but it gained my trust to surrender to God, the source of all.
Since that day, I learned to let go of my desires and embrace God’s plan. My life continued to be blessed in so many ways.
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